Bringing Home Jace...

A Letter From Your Momma

2011-08-19T09:50:00.001-04:00

My Dearest Jace,

It is with the utmost love in my heart that I write my first letter to you. Our journey from the Lord to you is found within the pages of this blog. It is here you will find my thoughts from the beginning of this journey until now. I may not have given birth to you, but you were chosen to belong to me. The Lord knew you before you were born. It was the Lord who guided you to your family. I don't know how or where your tiny life began, but what I have learned about you is etched into my mind forever. I treasure every little nugget of information that was given to me.

You were born in Beijing, China. You were found in a hallway of the Beijing Children's Hospital. Your exact birthdate is unknown, but you were given a birthday of January 15, 2007, based on dental impressions when you were found. You were wearing a red hat and jacket. You stayed with the Beijing Police department for three weeks until you were moved to the Beijing Children's Welfare Institution. You remained there until the summer of 2010. That day in July when we met. That is the day our family was completed.

I remember the look in your eyes when you walked around the corner into the waiting room where I was sitting. You were holding hands with your nanny, your eyes big and curious. I may have even detected a hidden smile. I was shaking, nervous, excited...my anticipation exploded when our eyes met. You watched as I fell apart in awe. I put my arms out to you. You were still cautious, but interested. I could almost see you thinking 'Who is this woman?'. The nanny kept saying "Mama, Mama...", but your world was silent. You couldn't hear any explanation of who I was...or why you were there.

You came closer and I pulled you onto my lap. I remember how natural it felt as you sat in my lap. I showered you with toys just so I could study every inch of your face, the color of your precious skin, every freckle, every finger and toe...It was as if I gave birth to you that very moment.

We played a little more. I laughed. I cried. And for the first time, you smiled. In the photos that were sent to me as I waited for you, I never saw you smile. And there you were...in my arms, smiling. Your smile was infectious. Every mom and dad in that room smiled back at you. There wasn't a dry eye in that place. After about an hour, I regained my composure. I scooped you up along with your belongings, put you on my hip, and out of the building we walked. Your arms were around my neck. You looked at me and smiled again. Your eyes never turned behind us. You never looked back, and neither did I.

We boarded a bus headed for our hotel. Again, you were on my lap. Only this time you were facing me. I motioned for you to kiss me and you did. It was then I knew you were comfortable. Although unprepared for this transition, you sensed 'home'. You see Dear Jace, home isn't where you live. It isn't a country, an institution, or a house. It's a belonging. It's a deep seeded love that will never go away. It's with the people you love. 'Home' is a family.

My beloved Jace..you are HOME.

Ahoy, Mates It's Big Sis' Birthday...

2011-08-02T15:32:00.000-04:00

From Gotcha to Keep on Pressing..

2011-07-21T20:11:00.001-04:00

one year (to the day) later...and here we are...a God given, blessed family! One year ago today I held my precious son in my arms for the first time in that cold, impersonal waiting room just off the lobby. The memory of his facial expression as he looked at me will be etched into my mind forever...

I can't believe a whole year has passed. Jace has grown 3 inches...his weight has only increased by a few pounds, but he is changing constantly. When he came home last year, he couldn't climb stairs. Now, he runs up and down them without effort. He couldn't jump, or hop on one foot. Now, he is leaping off of furniture. He couldn't hear. Now, he signs to me when the batteries are dead in his cochlear implant. He continues to excel in sign language. He loves school, adores his siblings, and tells me he loves me without prompting. This little boy continues to be a true testimony to God's provision and love. If there is ANY message I'd like to plant, it is this:

Please, please listen to that still, small voice that speaks to your heart. It just may be your Creator whispering in your ear. It just may be a glimpse of the plan He has masterfully created for you and your life. Please try and be obedient to the gentle prompting of the Holy Spirit inside of you. I am no expert of doctrine. I have no college degree. I can't even properly quote scripture. But I have seen bits and pieces of the Lord. I have seen His marvelous plan unfold in my life...and I have seen the fruitfulness of obedience. Oh, sure I've suffered the ramifications of my rebelliousness-I've not always been obedient. But I know my Savior, and I know He has already suffered the consequences on my behalf. I've accepted His love and mercy and forgiveness.

If there is any hope within me, it is in the Lord....I pray this day that all who read will feel the same...

In Christ Alone,
The Pierro Family

Jace's First Monster Truck Show

2011-07-17T18:54:00.000-04:00

Milestone!

2011-07-12T10:11:00.000-04:00

This morning at breakfast I turned on the usual PBS cartoon channel for Jace as he ate and waited for the school bus. While he was eating, I put his CI device on him, the usual green light flashing letting me know it's working. Several minutes later, Jace signed to me that his device was 'off'. I looked for the green lights and sure enough, the batteries were dead...I was SO excited to know that Jace REALLY DOES HEAR! And he knows the difference! Sure, he doesn't understand anything yet, or know what sound is....but this is a HUGE start!
Signed,

Proud Momma

Jace's 3rd Activation

2011-07-07T09:36:00.000-04:00

...silly boy...although he makes some facial responses when she turns up the sound, one video captures the surprised look when she turns OFF the sound. When the sound is off, he doesn't want to wear the device. THAT IS WHY HE WAS ALWAYS TAKING IT OFF AND HIDING IT>>>DUH, MOM!!! I thought it was because he didn't WANT to hear the sounds. I can't wait to begin his rehab with the Listening Center!

The new videos are on the YouTube sidebar to the right of this page. Click on it and when the page comes up, click on 'spierroful' at top right hand corner. All of his videos are there....

Cochlear Implant Activated

2011-06-30T16:15:00.000-04:00

First Activation appointment!

I'm sorry it took so long for me to update Jace's blog. We have been busy with camping trips, vacation bible school and other fun summer stuff. Here's the deal--Jace isn't so crazy about the device. He loved it at first as you can see from the pictures. However, it continues to annoy him throughout the day. When he is tired, he hides it somewhere in the house, or hurls it through the car if we are driving. Go ahead, laugh...I know it's funny now. But it won't be when he REALLY loses it. Thankfully, it has a remote that I can use to help find it-no, really!

He goes for his 3rd activation on July 6th. I hope to do a better job at updating this blog in the future...smile...

Jace's CI Surgery

2011-05-18T20:04:00.002-04:00

The CI surgery went GREAT! Here he is before playing on the floor of the OR prep room.

The orange bucket is his--in it he chose to bring a stuffed lion, a car, and a toy gun. The nurses were super sweet to him, and seemed to be able to communicate just fine. One wanted to be his 'girlfriend'...he smiled at that.

When it was finally time for surgery, I walked him into the OR, on my hip. He was a little curious and even more cautious as we stepped into the cold room. In the OR were about 6 or 7 people in blue scrubs with masks. They took one look at him with that toy gun and melted. Of course I had to be my theatrical self and EXAGGERATE the fact that 'all his friends were here'...all while I was wearing a full-bodied sterilized white( bunny suit) scrub and an ever so flattering OR hat.

He laid down on the table and let them put the mask on him. His eyes shown that he was scared but my eyes pretended that it wasn't so scary. My silly faces seemed to soothe him as he drifted into sleep.

Three hours later, the doctor came out to tell us that everything went incredibly well. He told us that he had high hopes for 'that little guy'. He said that Jace was 'gonna sail' through the next years with having his new ear. I couldn't wait to see him and hold him. Poor thing had no idea what he would wake up to.

He fought the waking after anesthesia. It was hard to comfort him. He couldn't wake up his eyes and of course he couldn't hear anything. I wonder what he was thinking? I cannot imagine. The nurses let me just hold him and rock him as he cried. As soon as he recognized me, he calmed down into a whine. After about 10 minutes, a nurse rubbed a popsicle over his lips and that did the trick!!

Here he is after a nice bath and a lot of food!

Alex and lil brother fell asleepthe next day after a movie.

Day three. I removed the bandage and cleaned the wound. It is healing so nicely!!

Thanks for all your prayers and support! I can't wait until June 13 and 14. This is when they turn on his new device! I can't wait to film it and show you too!!!!

El-Elyon, Hear My Prayer...

2011-05-09T22:51:00.000-04:00

...and so the day is coming. The day I prayed for. The day I dreamed of. And yet, the day I can't help but worry about. Oh, I know in my heart that God is in control. In fact, I know Jehovah-Rapha. I have witnessed His touch, His power, and His healing. So tell me then, why am I constantly worrying over this? Why am I not the trusting, faithful, and quiet daughter of Elohim? Why do I not pray about it and leave it to Jace's Creator?

Because in my flesh, I know that a mere doctor is going to drill hole into my baby's skull. I've seen the CAT scan and how closely the facial nerve lies to the cochlea. Sure, I've heard the surgeon tell me that he has 'plenty of room' in my baby's head to not 'hit' that nerve that may cause paralysis. I've heard him tell me how successful this type of surgery is. I've spoken with the audiologist, the psychiatrist, the speech therapist...the list goes on. I've researched the internet until my brain was overwhelmed. I've talked to others who've had the surgery and tell me that is SO worth it. Nonetheless, I sit here and fret. About the surgery. About the recovery. About the ENTIRE decision I've made for my son who has NO idea what is about to happen. And suppose...just for a moment...that something bad DOES happen? Here I am, making a life altering decision for Jace without his opinion! Without his approval! Without any knowledge of his whatsoever! Suppose he LOVES a silent world. After all, he is SO happy. ALL OF THE TIME! What if he hates the sound of people talking on the street? Or background noise? What if he doesn't want to hear a car horn...or a siren...or WOSRE... the filth that so frequently comes from a mouth without a conscious....

But what about the beautiful things that he has missed out on hearing? Like the birds in the morning-calling to a darkened world-to arise and greet the sunshine! Or the rhythmic sound of raindrops that falls on the window as we settle in for a nap...the giggle of a baby...the 'pop' of a toaster...the VOICE of a momma telling him that she LOVES her baby boy. Oh, how I wait for the day that Jace hears my voice! Will it be a whisper? Or will it be a drawn out, 2 syllable 'Jaa-ace'? It doesn't matter, does it? He will hear my voice! And it is my voice!...I pray he will embrace it! Even the sheep know the voice of the Shepherd! And so the day is coming...

Please, Adonai...let me hear Your voice!!

Easter Pictures

2011-05-03T09:52:00.000-04:00

Random Photos

2011-04-16T20:07:00.002-04:00

mean face

silly face

AvaGrace, Jace and our finch

Chick-fil-a

still mastering pizza

Not much happening. Waiting for May 12th for the first cochlear. I'm feeling pretty at peace with the whole surgery thing for now. I am sure that as time approaches, the anxiety will as well. I have many videos to upload but I'm having trouble with it on blogspot. Gotta get Daddy to help me! But the biggest news for today is: Jace has grown 3 INCHES since he has come home!!!!!!!

Some Flippin' Fun

2011-03-31T09:30:00.001-04:00

At the Baltimore Aquarium. We met some friends with familiar faces from China. Always good to see Karen and her girls. We had a blast!

His favorite fascination were the sea turtles. He enjoyed the dolphins too, but the turtles were a hit. He knew the signs for many of the sea creatures, so that was fun watching him sign the names.

Jace's Gotcha Day

2011-03-14T17:39:00.000-04:00

Jace's Gotcha Day Video

2011-03-14T17:31:00.001-04:00

I've never posted it here because the file was too big. I recently learned that I could post it on YouTube, so that's what I did. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! Copy and paste the link below to see it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ySC1I8Vhi90

Surgery Date is Set!

2011-03-09T21:24:00.000-05:00

...for May 12th! Actually, they are trying to get us in sooner, so if there is a surgery cancellation between now an then, we're in! Go ahead, you can start praying now for him...(*smile*) I know I will be!!

signing 'candy' to me because he knows I cave when he's cute!

After waiting too long for a hearing test, he slides under
the chairs in the waiting room for some fun.

Pizza Hut waiting for food

REALLY tired of waiting for food...

Final Appointments and Waiting

2011-03-02T14:21:00.000-05:00

...on a date for surgery, that is.

Jace's surgeon is booked through the end of May, but he is seeking to borrow an OR to do Jace's CI asap. Yesterday we met with the psychologist who explained how hearing and the brain work early in life. Unfortunately, Jace is older than they would have liked for implantation, but he's still a good candidate. From what I gather they think he will in fact hear sounds, but just how much sound is unclear. Cognitively, he is right where he is supposed to be. Which is such a good thing! In the meantime, I will continue to pursue any avenue I can to help him accomplish as much hearing and speech development as possible. It doesn't help though when Jace pulls out his hearing aids and hides them under my bed. haha..can you picture it?

I am just WAITING for Hopkins to call me with a surgery date!!! Any day now...

Auditory Skills Appointment?

2011-02-25T09:40:00.000-05:00

check...

So his audiologist did more extensive tests. This time with the hearing aids (loaded with brand new batteries). She talked to him and he was his usual fun self. She gave him some toys to keep him busy, then beat a drum just behind his head. Nothing.

"Yea...", she said, "...He's definitely profoundly deaf." Well, we knew this, right?

She quizzed him on pictures, gave him instructions on making sounds like, /b/, /p/, and /sh/. He did very well-which again, we already knew he would. Then she informed me that the whole team has already unanimously approved him for surgery. She told me that Dr. Stewart, his surgeon, is eager to do it asap. When the coordinator asked when he wanted to schedule, his words were something like "How about now?!" I am told that the administrator will be calling me to schedule surgery any day. Woo hoo!

Now, here is what I am told about the cochlear implants:

~it is an outpatient surgery with little risks (whew)
~kids normally bounce back quickly after surgery (whew, whew)
~they will be turned on 1 month after surgery-a little at a time (bummer, I'm excited).
~not to expect a whole lot at first, as it takes babies at LEAST one year of hearing sounds (life) before
  they even speak a word. For Jace, maybe the same.
~given Jace's assessments, and the determination from his team, his teachers, and us, he will more than
likely beat the statistic of deaf kids graduating high school with a 4th grade reading level(LOVE THIS-
  but I'm getting ahead of myself, as usual.)
~it is NOT a cure to deafness, but rather a tool for learning within the hearing world. But, I have said
  before, I embrace his deafness. We will always sign when speaking so that he may have complete
  understanding without frustration (hopefully).

Next Monday are his final appointments. The psych eval and the device discussion. I am quite sure that I will learn much more along this journey. As I do, I will post!

Hearing Aids!

2011-02-15T12:08:00.001-05:00

Too bad he still hears nothing! But doesn't he look so cute????????

His audiologist says they are turned up as high as they can be--That he has a teeny-weeny chance of hearing SOMETHING....but after her testing he didn't respond to any sound. He has to wear them every waking hour, just in CASE he may hear a certain sound. He may need to 'learn' to hear. We will see....all of his team ADORE him...even the surgeon. How can they not?

Next week more testing...will keep you posted!!!!

Cochlear Process Update

2011-02-11T11:55:00.000-05:00

Just some updates on where we stand before Jace is scheduled for surgery. We've already had the CAT scan and sonogram at JHU. His surgeon thinks is a perfect candidate for CI. He thinks Jace was probably born deaf. There is no proof that he may have deafness due to any illness or accident. The cochlea is intact and the facial nerve was visible, which is HUGE. However, he is much older than they would have liked to begin such a procedure. Drs. like to begin in very early years. That being said...

2/10/2011    Yesterday Jace had a speech evaluation at Hopkins. In a quick assessment from the speech therapist, he scored about that of a 5 to 11 month old. This is mostly because he's never had any training in speech therapy until he came home. He will need lots of speech therapy, which he gets in school. This doesn't bother me at all. In fact, I'm up for the challenge. And so are his teachers. Since the start of preschool in September (only 3 days per week from 9-11:30) he can pronounce letters /b/, /p/, /m/, and short vowel sounds like /u/ and /o/. Lots of reading and signing are helping. Remember, he only came home in August--with NO signing. Now? He is learning so fast that his teachers are surprised. This boy is SO clever!

These are the upcoming appointments:

2/15/2011      Hearing and aid testing (won't work-for ins. purposes only)
2/21/2011      Auditory skills
3/01/2011      Testing and device discussion
                      Psych evaluation
On 3/8/2011 CI team will meet and discuss all results together, opinions, and surgical procedures.

After that he will have his first side scheduled for surgery. One month after healing the device will be turned onto a very low setting. We go back to Hopkins weekly to turn the volume up. It is a slow process which will take a lot of patience. And prayer. After a month or two of weekly visits, if no complications, then we go 1 month, 3 months, 6 months, 1 year. If all goes well, the next year he will have surgery again on the other side. Sounds simple, right? HAH! We're going to find out.

Off to read to my clever boy...

Bringing Home Jace

2011-02-07T12:42:00.002-05:00

Dear Jace,

You have been home for six months now. The time sure has flown by. Not only have you grown leaps and bounds in these six months, you also have shown us your sweet, happy nature and your love. What a special little man you are! Oh sure, we have our rocky times, like any other family. And yes, you are very strong willed...but so am I. I will not give up on you no matter how hard you try to make me angry (and believe me, you're good at that!). No matter how many times you 'pee' on me when you get mad, or stick out your tongue when I say 'no'...no matter how many times you give me a nasty look. I will never stop loving you. I will never stop disciplining you. I will never stop teaching you, training you...adoring you. I am your mother.

You belong here, little Jace. God made you for us...in this home...in this family. United in the foundation of the Lord, here is where you belong. Whether we are in the car, in front of the tv, arguing over bed time, or when to brush your teeth. Whether we are at the dinner table, or in the tub...We are one unit, one heart beating, one testimony for the Lord.

But our testimony doesn't end here. Maybe this journal will end, but not our story. You will touch the lives of many generations to come. You make sure, little man, that you share your testimony. Share it loud and clear. You don't need a voice for that, Jace. Until you show the world who Jace is in the Lord, I'll be that voice. I am your mother.

The months to come bring more challenges-changes so hard for one little 4 year old. Cochlear implants will bring a new challenge of its own. Each step of the way, your family will carry you through it. You'll never be alone again. You'll never wonder where the next meal is, who will be taking care of you each morning when you awake. You're home now-where you were made to be. And you were made for me. And I? I am PROUD to be your mother.

Bowling Birthday Bash!

2011-01-30T22:49:00.000-05:00

Here it begins:

But somewhere in the middle (eh-hem...)he gets restless, wanting comfort of mom:

Then the fun really begins:

My baby turned 4...hard to believe he's only been home for 6 months!!

A celebration indeed! Not just for Jace's life, but for the Life who gave Himself for Jace!

Reading and Writing

2011-01-28T13:08:00.001-05:00

Jace reading:

And here he is writing :

Jace turns 4, at HOME!!

2011-01-17T23:09:00.004-05:00

And so it is....his birthday came on 1/15...as I read through the posts I've written before he came home, I found this one:

Home

Nick: “Mommy? Can you hold me tighter?”

Me: “Sure buddy, I’d love to.”

I wrap my arm around his little body and pull him closer. I love snuggling with my little boy. Most parents can’t sleep with toddlers. They kick you, punch you…talk in their sleep. Their small bodies are like the hands of a clock. Always turning-winding themselves around your bed. Sometimes, while fast asleep, you’ll feel the pounding of two toddler feet smack in the middle of the back.

Nick: “Mommy?”
Me: “Hmm?”

My eyes are feeling very heavy at this point. I really do not want to talk. All day we talk. We argue. We negotiate. It’s exhausting. Now, I don’t want to do anything but sleep.

Nick: “Mommy, I really want you to hold me tighter”.
Me: (yawning) “Ok, Buddy.”

With that I slide my bottom arm under his pillow where his head is resting. He is quiet now. Within moments I am sweating and uncomfortable. I start to remove my top arm when he quickly reaches for my wrist, locking my arm in his clutch.

Me: “Nick, Buddy...are you afraid?”
Nick: “Yeess”, he says in an almost whine.
Me: “Of what, Honey? Mommy is right here, ” I say convincingly.
Nick: “Of that closet. I’m afraid something will come out of there and get me.”
Me: “Buddy! There’s NOTHING in that closet but mommy’s clothes. How in the
world could mommy’s clothes get you?”
Nick: “Uh-huh, Mom…something’s in there. It’s scares me.”
Me: “Honey, nothing will ever come and get you. Not out of that closet and not in this house, ok? Your mommy is right here. You are completely safe.”

As I lay there waiting for him to fall asleep, I wonder where that fear came from. Did he watch something on tv? A cartoon, perhaps? This is a new fear of his. It’s never been an issue before.

A little later I notice a heavier, more rhythmic breathing. I can finally remove that upper arm that is starting to tingle now-or at least I thought I could. Slowly, I start to withdraw but he retaliates, even in sleep, quickly grabbing my arm and tucking it back under his side.

How does a child sense, while sleeping, that he is no longer safe because he is not wrapped in his momma’s arms? How does his body react to again find that safe place? I read once that if you put a newborn in bed with his mother-even a short distance away from her body-that newborn will eventually wriggle its way back to her nurturing breast.* It’s not only a safe clutch…it’s home. Not the physical structure where we live, or go to everyday after work or school. No. This is more than that. Our God given senses tell us where home is. Home is intangible. It is a deep sense of love, of belonging, of family.

What about Jace? What is home for Jace? There are no warm bodies lying next to him at night stroking his cheek or kissing his head. There is no mothers’ neck in which to nestle him into a restful sleep. No smell of her skin, or hum from her lips. What is his home? Is it the flicker of the flouresant lighting he sees over his crib? Is it the hustle of a crowded playroom filled with multicolored toys? Or maybe the routine of mealtime scheduled precisely on a specific hour.

That is not the home I want for my son. I want him here, with me-with us. I want him to be part of this exhausting, talking all day, arguing, negotiating family. I want to see him smile. I want to see him playing with his brother and sister. I want to wrestle him into the bathtub and convince him that I will always win at ‘it’s time to brush your teeth’. I want to be there at bedtime. But mostly, I want him to fall asleep in the comforting arms of his momma. I want him home.

Home. I know what it is here on this earth- the overflow of safety and love -the gentleness of a comforting touch. But there is one much larger scale of my instinctual definition of ‘home’. Only this home is not intangible. This home is a Promise that God gives us-a place that He has prepared for us. * One that waits with open arms, a loving embrace, and a grip unbreakable. An incomprehensible awe.

Lord, as I prepare a home for Jace, let it be one that is emulated by your Son, Jesus Christ. Let it be abundant in Love and Grace. Let your arms of Protection embrace us…Your Light and Word direct us…Let Peace dwell in our hearts forever until you call us Home…

References:
• /www.thebabyswebsite.com/what-babies-know/babies-know-how-to-find-theirc-mother-s-breast-and-how-to-feed-themselves.html

• John Chapter 14

Everything I imagined....everything I dreamed about with Jace has come to fruition these past 5 months. I love him so much--can't imagine life without him--Thanks be to God who made it ALL come true!!!!

Bringing Home Jace...: Tangled Mess

2011-01-06T22:10:00.000-05:00

Bringing Home Jace...: Tangled Mess

Tangled Mess

2011-01-06T21:59:00.004-05:00

Ok, so in this picture you see a very tangled mess. These are delicately beaded window treatments that I happen to LOVE. Call it what you want, but I call it an array of pretties that make beautiful shades of loveliness throughout the house when the sunshine hits them. These beauties were in my front window before Christmas. But every girl likes to decorate for the holidays--and of course, the decor must match...Bye-bye beads til after Christmas. Needless to say, when Yours Truly put these beaded beauties in a drawer for after Christmas, she didn't do it tenderly. Oh no. "Git Er Done, Shannon' does nothing meticulously or with any kind of premeditation. Uh-uh. In a drawer they go-no matter how lovely. So, when that day came to put away all the reds and greens, I opened that drawer and (**GASP**) the beaded curtains were so tangled, so distressed and...quite frankly...ugly. (Big sigh)...

So I decided to hang the curtains and try to untangle the endless, chaotic bound strands of beads. And so it goes...2 hours into it...turns 4 hours...6 hours...no, I wouldn't give up....8 hours! In one day? Yes, 8 hours and it was still mayhem. But I'll get to that...Now, those of you who know me, know that I have NO patience. NO ties to material things. Not even pets. I could love something for 3 weeks and it's on Craig's List on week 4. Believe me, I hear flack about it all the time. It's just who I am. Except for these dang beads. I LOVE them...

So here I am am, hour after hour, gingerly trying to undo damage- strand after strand--only to end up in the same center of complicated mess. I just couldn't get to the artery of the center. I cussed, prayed, cussed and prayed (go ahead, judge me). It wasn't working. I walked away NUMEROUS times. But something GOOD did come out of it. In between the whining, cussing, and praying...I thought about the tangled web of strands and the adorned beads, and how that MUST reflect us in God's eyes. Here we are in this world...the choices we make, the turns we take....it can lead to chaos, can't it? It can lead to mayhem. It's a tangled mess at times. But a tangled mess of loveliness to God. No matter how ugly we are--he adores us and calls us beautiful in His eyes. His hands are gentle ones trying to defend....trying to guide each bead (path). And just when He fixes a strand, we take another turn. His hands gently untangle us, but we are headstrong...we don't listen, we don't hear. We push...push through what? MORE chaos. But He is faithful. He is patient. And He waits. He waits for us to surrender. Surrender. Think about that. How many times have you wandered through 'the wilderness' before you realized that you NEED the hands of God? NEED the gentle loving provision of He who created you?

But there IS hope for those of us that love the Lord. There is hope for we that persevere. For those of us (me) that think they can take the lead in life...STOP...let the gentle hands of the Lord untangle your life. Let Him sit back and smile when He knows you have surrendered to Him. I promise you that the end result of patient, tender, loving, working hands...that LOVE the one that belongs to Him-will be straightened out. Emulating an array of BEAUTY that will display LOVELINESS throughout their lives...

3 days. 3 Days it took of gentle handling. 3 days of sore fingertips. 3 days of not giving up. The end result was worth it to me. Maybe it's not beautiful to you, but to me...Ahhhh....it's done. Just think what it means to our Creator....How many days has God been patient with you? hah...will you surrender?

Yea, yea, I know this blog is about Jace, so here are a few pictures of what made me stop and laugh when I was so aggravated...

Ava decided that her, Nick and Jace needed to sing "Oh, Come All Ye Faithful" with pregnant bellies...

And here they are after being silly all night....Now THIS is true Loveliness....

He Loved It!!

2010-12-28T13:07:00.000-05:00

He got the hang of this Christmas thing...

The Gift of Jace

2010-12-15T16:34:00.001-05:00

I journal tonight with a grateful heart and a smile on my face. You see, today when Jace came home from school, there was a special package wrapped inside of his backpack. As I pulled out a small, brown paper bag embellished with red and green glittered Christmas stickers, I thought maybe it was a gift to Jace from his teachers. But instead, as I unwrapped pretty red striped tissue I realized that it was a homemade dough Christmas ornament with a tiny handprint. Not just any handprint. That beautiful ornament is a special one, in that it is the sign for "I Love You"~~That handprint belongs to my Jace. My gift from the Lord. And what a gift he is!

Jace continues to learn sign as quickly as I can teach him. I can even sign sentences to him and he understands. Even down to telling him that he must '...first eat his dinner, then he may have a treat...', or that '...we must pay for that before we can open it..."~~ What a gift he is!

Jace's siblings embrace him, deaf or otherwise. They too are learning sign very quickly. There isn't a hint of communication frustration in our home. Nope. Jace can understand gestures if we don't know a specific sign. If you are reading this, then you too could get to know Jace without learning any sign at all. He is used to coping-used to improvising...He's never angry if others don't understand. He simply puts his hand into yours and pulls you to whatever he is talking about. He is a testimony in himself~~What a gift he is!

This is another ornament he made--also wrapped in red striped tissue. It is a star smelling of gingerbread--precious yes, but not like that tiny hand sign. I love that handprint! I love that God designed it, formed it, brought it into this world-then sent it to ME!! Oh, what a gift he is!!

So proud was he when I opened that gift and dropped to my knees to hug him, tears filling my eyes and kissing him madly! His face lit up when I signed 'beautiful' over and over again! When I signed 'thank you, Jace!', His smiling eyes shown the love he has for me...That memory will be etched into my mind forever...What a GIFT he is!!!!!

More pictures of the past week for you to enjoy:

Always Excited!

2010-12-06T21:07:00.000-05:00

sees a dinosaur

being silly

haha so cute!

signing 'cracker'

Sees a train

Sees a bus

The Magic of Disney

2010-12-04T23:10:00.003-05:00

On the way....

The big eyed, ever-smiling, always happy boy LOVED Disney...but then again, he is known by embracing life's moments-big and small...

We're In Disney World!

2010-11-29T11:31:00.000-05:00

I can't wait to post pictures so that you all may see Jace's expressions! But I will have to wait until I get home because I didn't bring my laptop! Grrr...so I am typing from my phone--please excuse the typos!!

Today we are in Disneys Epcot. We are waiting for Ron And the girls to get off of test track. I'll keep you updated so stay tuned!!

What I'm Thankful For...

2010-11-21T22:34:00.001-05:00

....too many to name, really. But what really stands out to me, besides the obvious gift of my salvation, are all of my children.

Alex was my first born. I was 28 and very self-centered. I wanted a baby but didn't think I had what it took to be a mom. Until the moment she was placed in my arms. It was the very moment our eyes locked- that look of curiosity, overwhelming love and joy-in both of us, that changed my life forever. It was Alex who the Lord chose to draw me into the everlasting awe that I have for Him to this day.

Seven years later, AvaGrace arrived. After two restless nights without sleep my water broke at 2:30 am. She was born not many hours afterward, which is just like my AvaGrace, to come into this world quickly all the while embracing it. Still at seven years old, she is my free spirited child, filled with compassion and love, embracing each moment-always with a smile.

Nicholas was a tough delivery. Any veteran mom would think the third baby would birth himself, right? Not quite. Nicholas was stuck. Big time. The doctors underestimated Nick's weight. After pushing for what seemed like forever (ok, seriously, maybe an hour tops), he was placed on my belly. I couldn't believe how much that baby weighed! An ounce shy of 10 pounds! The nurse teasingly told me I gave birth to a toddler! Anyone who knows my Nicholas also knows his stubborn nature. His birth was nothing different. But oh how happy I was to get a boy! He is still stubborn at times, but I am confident God made him this way for a reason.

And now there is Jace. I'll never know what his birth was like. I didn't hold his brand new tiny body in my arms. It wasn't my breast that nurtured and soothed him. I never heard his first cry. It wasn't the smell of my skin that comforted him. The womb in which he was made was not mine. But it isn't the womb that makes the baby anyway. Not without the say so of the Lord. It was the Lord who knit him in that womb (Psalm 139:19). It was the Lord that used his birth mother to carry him. And it was the Lord who chose me to be his mom. My hands feed and clothe him now. My arms carry him. It is the smell of my skin that comforts him. I never gave birth to Jace, but he fills my heart the very same way each of the others do, and I can't remember what life was like before he arrived.

These are the blessings I am thankful for. All of my children.

...May they glorify You in all they do in this world each and every day, Lord...

November Happenings

2010-11-11T16:39:00.000-05:00

No much to update. Jace is still battling this skin infection? foliculitis? dermatitis? Three different dr visits and $100 in copays later, we still can't get a definitive answer. However, the topical steroid creme IS working, thank GOD...It is still covering his body but to a lesser degree. More spots are fading daily.

He has started school on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays--and LOVES it. Loves the bus, the drivers, the teacher, the singing and games...all of it. He happily jumps out of bed in the mornings to get dressed and start his days. I wonder what he thinks on Thursdays and Fridays when it's just him and me hanging out. On those days he's busy helping me clean, do laundry, and go for wagon rides. He loves it outside too. Can't wait to take him camping next summer!

We leave for Disney World in two weeks....to see his reaction to all of the visual stimulation and fun there will be absolutely priceless! His brother and sisters are excited for him to see it too.

Jace still loves to kiss....Finally, Nicholas caved and actually lets him do it. For months he was completely adamant in his refusal to accept a kiss from a boy-brother or otherwise! We convinced him that it's ok because Jace's is a baby, not a 'big boy' like Nicholas (wink, wink). It worked.

Next week we have another appointment with JH Cochlear Center to proceed with the necessary steps pre-surgery. He will be fitted for hearing aids (which will do nothing), have a speech therapy session, and other auditory tests. We had to put things on hold until these bumps went away! TWO WEEKS of itching, scratching, oatmeal baths, calamine lotions and sleepless nights....Grrr....BUT '...joy comes in the morning...', right?

Chicken Pox....or Something Else?

2010-11-02T11:49:00.001-04:00

You tell me...

Can't get doctors to agree...one says folliculitis and the other says chicken pox. All I really know is that Jace is one itchy little boy. He is scratching all day, poor thing. It started out on his back by the top of his pull-up. I really thought it was bug bites; flea, bed bugs--who knows. Then it traveled up the back to his chest. From there to his neck and hair line. He even had a blister on his tongue. Now he is covered pretty much all over but it still seems mild to me-there aren't any other 'blisters' but they do scab over. I am keeping him home just in case it is chicken pox and I am treating it likewise.

We are proceeding with the cochlear implant planning, but not sure where just yet because of insurance reasons. I will keep you posted on the process. We meet again with Hopkins for hearing aid testing (waste of time yet required by law), audio skills and speech next Tuesday. Looking forward to it!!

xo,
Shannon

1st Day of School

2010-10-26T08:55:00.001-04:00

Jace started preschool yesterday. I was a little nervous that he would'nt go on the school bus without me-this wasn't the case as you can see from his smiling face. I think because I signed to him ALL week that he was going to school, to see his teacher, Ms. Kristine. His teacher sent me a picture of herself so that I could prepare him. Great idea--it worked!

They told me he went right into the room and started to play. They were pleasantly surprised at how many signs he actually knew and that he went along with all they did that morning. I'm quite sure he loved every minute of it. The atmosphere in the classroom is one that is both fun and frustration free for these kids. They all look like they love it. The teachers have a passion for learning and for the needs of these children. Now I just need to figure out how am I going to break it to Jace that he won't go to school on Thursdays and Fridays???

As for the cochlear situation, I am at a crossroad. I want so much to go ahead with Hopkins. However, I am told that after the first of the year, thanks to the new 'health care' laws-my insurance will change drastically and I may have to pay as much as 65% of the surgery. That is both ridiculous and seemingly impossible since it is well over $40,000. I may have to wait for Jace's medical access card (which covers the surgery) and use a different hospital in PA. This hospital doesn't have much experience in cochlear implants, and I am petrified to send him there. Please pray with me that I am led to whatever decision I am supposed to make!!

Quick Updates

2010-10-21T10:12:00.001-04:00

Updates:

~We went to Johns Hopkins. Drs say he is a perfect candidate for a cochlear implant. Both ears, of course. We have a lot of research to do regarding risks (which are minimal) of surgery, choosing a manufacturer, committing to a life change with numerous dr appointments, scheduling audiologists, psychologists, troubleshooting the device...the list goes on and on.

~Jace went to an orientation at his new school. So far, he LOVES it. Me too. I like what I see. I love the energy of the teacher and assistants. Complete fun and learning without frustration, which is perfect for a 3 yr old.

~He starts school next Monday, October 25, and gets on a bus for the first time. Mommy will be freaking out, but Jace will be fine.

~We continue to make huge progress in signing and comprehension of signs!!

~Here he is pictured signing 'breakfast'--the boys eats 6 eggs whites (with 1 yolk) every morning!! And at the drs office this week.

Jace Saying "MaMa"

2010-10-18T15:08:00.000-04:00

"...God's gift to him was silence..."

2010-10-18T00:23:00.000-04:00

"...He was born a little less than perfect, at least in that doctors' eyes..."

They labeled him 'deaf/mute' in China. That was Jace's 'special need'.

Tomorrow we meet with Jace's team at his new school. We meet with his teacher, PT, OT, Psychologist, and Audiologist. We learn his IEP (Individual Education Plan). These are the goals set for Jace from the experts within his school.

Tuesday is another day altogether (beside the fact that it is Nick's 5th birthday)... we meet with the cochlear implant audiologist and surgeon at John's Hopkins Listening Center to see if Jace is, in fact, a candidate for a cochlear implant. Now...I must say, I have been researching cochlear implants (CI) like crazy. What I have learned is not completely exciting. I have learned that these devices are best prescribed within the first 2 years of life. And that they are by no means the 'ears' that hear as we do--and that there is a facial nerve so close to where the surgeon works that if interrupted during surgery, may cause temporary or permanent facial paralysis.

"...God's gift to him was silence; in this world so full of noise..."

Noise. Think about that for a minute. Noise is everywhere. Noise can be as loud as a jet plane, or as soft as the sounds of the keys I am typing this very moment, in this quiet/sleeping house. And what about the birds outside our windows that wake us early in the morning? Or our children laughing? Even sounds as irritating as our children whining--can you imagine never hearing that? Whatever the noise is-we take it for granted. Just once I would LOVE to hear my Jace say "MaMa", and know he was speaking to me. Just once would I love to know he heard the beating of my heart as he lay peacefully sleeping on my chest...or that he heard his brother and sister's call his name. But are these sounds really 'noise'? Think about that...

... Think about the 'noise' in this life. The rush of everyday noise. The sound of the horn of a car, and the irritation in the 'hurry up and wait' life of rush hour traffic; the noise of a mom yelling at her children (me), the noise of racial slurs (too close to home for me to mention) from ignorant persons who have NO clue about life and love. The noise that we would LOVE to turn off...

..."And he sings with his smile...talks with his hands... he listens with his heart, so he always understands..."

Anyone who has met our Jace knows that this is a true and fair statement. The boy's heart is right where it should be. He never met a stranger. He smiles non-stop. He picks up signs faster than I can teach him. He listens to momma with his heart and he shows compassion for anyone who is hurting. This boy understands life no matter the hearing loss.

"...He believes there's more to life, than the sounds that it makes...he's PERFECT that way..."

The life Jace knows (for the most part) is a nurturing one. Hugs and kisses. Praises and scolding. 'Way-to-go's and 'don't you dare's...and yes, there are many spankings....but each spanking ends with an explanation and a 'kiss-and-make-up-with-mom' session...There IS more to life than the sounds it makes. Sometimes I am glad he doesn't hear the 'sounds' of life. One thing for sure...He is PERFECT that way.... God NEVER makes mistakes. And I pray He leads me to this (CI) decision...which HE will...I am confident in that.

Thank you, Lord for these children you have given me...and for the confidence you bestow in me...and for the compassion you have given me for each one of Your children...Amen...

From Serious Decibels to Serious Decisions

2010-10-07T18:46:00.004-04:00

Yesterday we went to Johns Hopkins for Jace's audiology test. He was very cooperative, as usual. In fact, both drs said that they were in love with my little boy. I think he liked all of the attention. The audiologist was excited to begin.

For the first test, electrodes were put into his ears at the same time while he was in a soundbooth. Ron went in with him to play and keep him busy as I waited outside the booth with the dr. The audiologist started out with 60 DB(decibels)-which is a typical conversation level for you and me. Nothing. She moved it to 80, then 100 DB....nothing. She turned to me and said "...we usually don't go past 105 DB, so I will try that next. " Still nothing. She was so curious that she turned up the whistling to 120 DB. I could see her hopeful expression disappear as she turned to me and said "He is profoundly deaf-in both ears. Hearing individuals are usually uncomfortable at about 100 DB. This noise level (at 120DB) is equivalent to a jet engine or being at a rock concert and standing right next to a speaker. Let's try more tests."

Next, she placed what looked like headphones on each ear-first the left, then the right. She told me not to expect anything because she knew he wouldn't hear any vibration throughout the ear. She was right. Jace didn't seem to mind though. He looked at books and played with pegs.

The final test was the one that hospitals give infants when they are born to measure sound waves to the inner ear. Again, she told me that nothing would happen, but she wanted to be 100 percent thorough. More of the same.

The dr appointment immediately followed the hearing tests. The dr told us that his hearing loss could have been from a childhood illness such as meningitis. Or, it could have been a recessive gene, meaning hereditary. The only way to (maybe) know such things is from DNA testing, which is a good idea, because we will be able to know what the chances are (percentage) that Jace's children could be born deaf. And since we know nothing about his bio family, it could be helpful.

The next step of course is to decide whether or not we should get him cochlear implants. This is a device that is inserted into the inner ear, through surgery. Later, after healing, a second surgery is required to insert the amplification inside his head. The final step is a magnetic device that Jace would wear outside of the piece in his head. Obviously, I have a lot more research to do!!! The surgery has risks, as all surgery does. The thing that scares me the most is that there is a facial nerve so close to where they would be working near the brain that if interrupted could cause facial distortion. However, risk is less than 1%. Doesn't matter-any risk whether low or not-this is my baby!

Most deaf people growing up in deaf families are completely opposed to this surgery, as deafness is its own culture. However, Jace's family is a hearing one. I am passionate enough to go to ASL classes and educate myself as much as possible. My family doesn't share this passion. Of course they love him like crazy. But sign isn't easy to learn quickly. Jace may benefit from cochlear implants for this reason alone. I don't want to be selfish and say 'Well, he will learn to sign and be fine." Truth is, if he can't hear, and family can't talk to him (only me), he will feel alone. Even isolated. I don't want that! The point is, I need to research-and research again, with prayer! Lots of it! Many, many points to consider.

Monday, we have an appointment for a CAT scan to see if the bone is intact. Sometimes, a childhood illness can leave the bone calcified thereby making it hard to insert the device. They want to make sure this bone is in good shape so that if we decide to go ahead with the surgery, there won't be any surprises. Also on Monday, he will have a sonogram of his kidneys since (while in utero) the brain, kidneys and ears are all formed at the same time. After these tests we will get an EKG to rule out any heart problems. Again, they just want to be thorough.

I want Jace to have the best quality of life he can possibly have. If that means inserting a device, without too much risk, then so be it. In my research for deaf culture, I have read that the average deaf child graduates high school with a 4th grade reading level. Does it have to be like that? No. I intend to change that. I intend to give him the best education that I can. If that means I have to work with him daily, I am up for it. I made a promise to God, to Jace and his country to love this boy with all my heart, and to provide the best home that I can. I intend to keep that promise.

God brought Jace to me, and I am confident that He will see this through. Every detail has already been mapped out before he was even born. There is no detail that doesn't go through God first. Psalm 139: 13-16 says:

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
  and knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
  Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
  as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
  Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
  before a single day had passed.

This is where my hope rests. I know it won't be easy, and that the road is long. Sometimes I think I blog just so I am reminded myself of how delicate we all really are, and how much we need to depend on the Lord for provision and guidance. For strength and for serenity.

Look at this face.

Does this look like a child affected by profound deafness? Nah, not Jace.

Yes, Dad...if you're seeing this, Jace's shoes AND my kitty are on my kitchen table...*GASPS*

Signing 'I LOVE YOU"....

Embracing Jace

2010-10-05T22:09:00.003-04:00

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1591984768531&ref=mf

Just a little glimpse into our reading sign books. Click on or copy and paste the link above. I can't seem to upload video with my mac laptop. I really hate technology!!!

Learning with Jace is so fun. I honestly love it. He knows more than 50 signs ( I wrote down as many as I could remember and it was over 50) and many more gestures. You don't need to sign in order to hang out with him. He follows gestures just fine. This is a huge relief to our family.

Tomorrow is a big day! I am very excited about it. We're going to John's Hopkins for audiology assessments. I can't wait to find out more about Jace's deafness. I want to know of he can hear anything at all! We go for testing at 8 am and follow up with the dr at 8:50 am. I'll be sure to let you know what happens.

If there isn't anything they can do for Jace, I will not be dissapointed. I absolutely embrace him being deaf. I love him just the way he is--INCREDIBLE!!!!

Not a Normal Sunday

2010-10-03T20:58:00.000-04:00

My Sunday morning was an awful one...

  After work Saturday, I placed my bag filled with my work shears and other salon tools in my bedroom, on top of a cedar chest. Since I am not used to worrying about kids getting into things, I forgot about it, and that was where it stayed for the rest of the weekend.

Sunday morning I woke up early, realized I was out of coffee, decided to 'get over it', made a pot of hot tea instead and began making breakfast for the kids. I attempted to make a big pancake breakfast-which was a disaster-and it got worse from there. As I was trying to get the temperature right for the pancakes (which ended up in the trash), I totally burned the omelette on the burner next to it (which I ate anyway because mom's just do that). Just after I decided to 'get over' that, I heard Jace scream from my bedroom.

Panic stricken, I ran into the bedroom to see what was happening. There I found Jace crying and standing with his left hand holding a very bloody right hand. I can't explain the horror I felt as my eyes darted in every direction looking for a clue of what just happened. He was very shaken and blood was on his brow, his feet and his arms. I dropped to my knees, scooped him up, and as I turned to carry him to the kitchen, I saw it. There, lying on that cedar chest was a single, straight razor blade! He must've opened my bag, pulled open (what he thought) was a pack of chewing gum, opened it and accidentally sliced off a chuck of skin from his thumb knuckle. Thank God Ron was home at the time because I was hysterical. I know what I've done to myself with those blades--I couldn't handle knowing what happened to my son!

Ron rinsed and rinsed it under the kitchen sink...we tried to bandage it but it kept bleeding. Finally, I remembered to have him hold his hand above his heart and the bleeding stopped. Once things settled down a bit, I decided to take him where I always go for a medical emergency--TO MY DAD'S HOUSE! Seriously, the man knows when a stitch needs to be made. He's never been wrong. Rather than sit in an emergency room for hours, I knew Dad would fix it just right--and if it needed a stitch, he would be the first to drive us to a hospital.

Even though illegal, I made Ron hold him in the back seat as I drove the 10 minutes to Dad's. Jace was very quiet, and I can only imagine how scared he was. I prayed over and over--'please let this be ok'...And it is ok...Once I saw him in Dad's hands, I was ok too. Dad cleaned it, nursed him back into shape, gave him a kiss, and off he went to play.

I totally skipped bathtime tonight because I don't even want to see that deep chunk of flesh flap-UGH! Poor thing! I hope it heals super fast! That was a huge lesson for me. Needless to say, the bag of tools are in my closet on the the highest shelf from now on!

Look at the photo on the left-those are razor blades for my carving comb. Now look at the photo on the right-That is the chewing gum I always buy. No wonder he thought he was finding gum! Thank God it never entered his mouth!!!!!

   "...Whew!..."

   Glad it's over!

Updates

2010-09-28T22:06:00.000-04:00

Here are some updates about our Jace...20 things...

1...He still loves to eat...wayyyy too much.
2...He never met a stranger...but it's balanced, so I am happy about that!
3...He picks up signs faster than I can teach him (and learn them myself).
4...He is still hoarding toys...we are working on that...
5...He doesn't cry anymore when I leave him to go to work. whew!
6...When we pray, he bows his head even though he has no clue what we're doing.
7...He no longer pinches me or hits me, like he did in China ;)
8...Did I mention I am in love with him?...
9...He LOVES routines...all of them!
10..He will pee and poo on the potty without a pull-up--but if it's on, he goes in it.
11..He loves his siblings and copies everything Nick does.
12..He rises every morning at 7---ready for bed at 8pm.
13..Whatever toys he's playing with that day, go with us bye-byes...more hoarding...
14..Ava is his biggest playmate. Alex is mom #2. Nick is a mentor.
15..He LOVES to kiss. and kiss again...especially at bedtime.
16..He never holds a grudge...even when being disciplined.
17..He still hates any food that is cold.
18..He loves trains and cars.
19..He lets Ava Grace dress him up in girl clothes???
20..Did I mention I am in love??????????

Guess Who Found the Gel?

2010-09-20T21:08:00.011-04:00

And now he is ADDICTED!!!!

14, 5, and 3

2010-09-16T14:20:00.006-04:00

From the time I started counting, that is.

Nap time is about 1 pm. Usually, as I am heading to the bedroom with Jace on my hip, the fight begins. I lay him down next to me, side by side and face-to-face, and pretend to sleep, like a dog playing dead. Never does the boy want to sleep, so the countdown begins.

I counted 14 kisses that he gave me. He thinks if he kisses me, I'll wake up. At first, I'll kiss him back, with eyes still closed. Then, he keeps at it. When I don't return the pucker, he wriggles my lips into position and tries it again. Now...I don't know about you, but it is extremely hard not to laugh as I sneakingly peer out of one eye and see two big, black eyes inches from my face waiting for me to open mine. Ha! So cute!

Then comes a few (5 to be exact) blows to the abdomen from restless legs and knees, followed by 3 swift bangs in the nose from toddler fists or elbows trying to find a comfortable spot. Still, I lay there waiting for him to fall into sleep. Minutes later....AH...there is it...two legs strewn over my hips, a fist clenched-yet rested- under my chin, and steady warm breath about my cheek.

When I finally open my eyes, this is what I see. I see a beautiful pair of eyes adorned with long, black lashes slightly curled at the ends, giving an illusion of a smile, even in slumber. I see a perfect button nose and full lips drawn like a bow. Smooth tanned cheeks that beckons a kiss from a mom in love.

I still can't believe he is finally home. I dreamed of this moment for a year. I wondered how he slept, what he looked like. And here he is. Lying next to me, heartbeat to heartbeat. And he is mine. How did I get so lucky, Lord? Why me? Why did you save him for me? Maybe someday I'll know, but today I can only whisper, 'Thank you, Lord.'

Primping, Ponytails, Pre-school, and Pull-Ups...

2010-09-09T17:02:00.003-04:00

....That's what we're up to at the Pierro house...

Alex has started the 9th grade and the one who takes the longest to get ready in the mornings due to primping in the mirror. She's a teen! All teens have natural beauty, so why do they do that?

Ava Grace is in the 2nd grade and loves it. She looks so precious when all of her hair is out of her face, hence ponytails--especially when she lets me put in those adorable big bows. Love those things!

Nicholas is in full time pre-school--something I thought would never fly with him. Wrong again, Momma...this shy little boy is LOVING it all day. What is his favorite part of every day, you ask? Eating popsicles in school, of course!

And then there's sweet Jace. The one in pull-ups. Man, is he cute when he reaches into his poopy diaper, pulls out the evidence and tries to give contaminated, poopy hands to me to wipe. Ok, not so cute. By the way, I didn't sign up for pull-ups. It's what he came with ;)

So how does a momma go from primping to pull-ups? I think it has something to do with having followed the mind of Christ and emulating his love. Nah, that couldn't be it because I'd screw that up in about 4 minutes. I'd say '5' minutes, but that's just funny-definitely fallacy. This momma loses her temper faster than you can spill an entire glass of milk. As that first drop hits the floor my face does this contorted thing, my voice changes, and I am pretty sure there's a big fat vain sticking out of my head somewhere. I know this because of the terrified look on my childrens' faces about the time my anger erupts.

Primping...ponytails...pre-school...pull-ups....all seasons, all milestones in our childrens' lives. I really wish I would embrace that instead of tearing it down. That will be my continued prayer-emulating the mind and love of Christ.

As I sit here sharing my thoughts and hitting these keys, my kids are running around the house chasing each other with light-up magic wands. And laughing. Really laughing. Even Jace. Normally that would grate my nerves and trigger a monster. Normally, I'd be screaming at them to quiet down. But not tonight. Tonight I am going to embrace that joyous laughter. Tonight we're making memories.

A funny thing happened last night...

2010-08-30T08:45:00.006-04:00

I was looking through some photos on my laptop while sitting at the kitchen table. I was wondering if Jace would be excited to see some of the shots I took of the institution where he lived for most of his young life. He was sitting on my lap at that time.

I showed him the outside shot of the building and he pointed with a smile. I showed him the inside of the lobby area and he nodded his head. I showed him a picture of himself sitting on the floor in the Gotcha Day room and he pointed to the little car I had sent him that he was playing with. Then the funny thing happened...only it wasn't really funny..it was actually heartbreaking. Next, I showed him the picture of his nanny and him. He immediately cried and backed away from the pc. He shook his head 'no' with a terrified look on his face and tried to move the cursor. He pushed the pc away from us. I turned if off and hugged him tightly. I kissed his little face over and over again. I felt so bad knowing that he was scared he may be going back there.

I know in time he will forget about that place and all of the negative feelings that go with it. I am so grateful to have this little boy in my family. He is a joy that words could never express. Thank you, Jesus for this little boy.

Here are some of those photos:

Jace's Trip to the Beach

2010-08-28T23:33:00.005-04:00

Things continue to settle into place nicely. We just returned from the beach yesterday. Jace was very afraid of the sand in his toes at first---but once he saw the water, he was all over that sandy beach!

We fished and we crabbed. We walked on the boardwalk. We went on rides. We swam in the pool and splashed in the ocean. We even drove to Assategue Island to see the ponies. He was amazed at everything. That boy of ours embraced every moment possible. What a joy he is! It's like he has always been in this family!

Settlin' In

2010-08-19T09:31:00.004-04:00

Jace,' Rockin' Out the Show'...

2010-08-11T09:04:00.002-04:00

I Love You, I Love You....

2010-08-11T08:31:00.002-04:00

This is Jace trying to mimic everything I say....SO SWEET!!!

There's a New Sheriff....

2010-08-10T07:40:00.007-04:00

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I love this tshirt from Uncle Joey. It's so true. Here are some updates:

~ We have a little fear of my cats. He tries to climb up my body when they come around!

~He is diggin' his dad a lot! In fact, he gravitates to the men in the family.

~We still have issues with naptime and bedtime. He won't go down without a fight and he sleeps with me or Ron. He also falls out of the bed a lot!

~He hasn't mastered the stairs yet. We need to work on is motor skills.

~He eats more than Ron-which is a miracle in itself. He has just finished his 3rd banana this morning. How can ANYONE eat 3 bananas? Yes, I am working on the appetite--just not right now.

~He LOVES plaing with his siblings.

AND

~He 'sings' into a microphone (very passionately) even though no words come out ;)!!!!!

We're Home!!!!

2010-08-07T08:41:00.003-04:00

Finally, after a L_O_N_G flight and 24 hours of NO sleep--we walked through a VERY DECORATED welcome home (Thanks Char and Gina) front door about 9pm. We played for about an hour as a family then baths, and BED!! Ava, Nick, Jace and me slept in my bed. It was completely uncomfortable but I didn't care because it was so nice to be with all my kids!!!

I'll update more later---just wanting to nest and play with all my family right now!!!!!

Love and hugs to all who have been there praying, and supporting this adoption and this FAMILY!!!!

I love you all so much,
Shannon

Goodbye, China

2010-08-05T09:17:00.004-04:00

Well, tomorrow we leave the hotel at 5:45am to catch an 8:00 flight to Beijing. We only a 2 hour layover in Beijing, then off to JFK (praying we make it--China is ALWAYS late), then a 5 hour drive home to Pennsylvania.

I thought this picture was appropriate to say goodbye to China. Here is this little Chinese boy with his panda backpack and his China flag, looking out the window. I won't miss China's culture (as a whole) AT ALL, but I will miss the experience of some of the miracles that happened here. Our lives are now changed forever. God has blessed us with this precious, happy little boy who's love for others is abundant.

I don't think it's a coincidence that my scripture reading from this morning was:

God created everything through him, and nothing was created except through him. The Word gave life to everything that was created, and his life brought light to everyone. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.
John 1:3-5, NLT

Even in the darkness of a country without God, oppressive and chaotic, God was the Light. He was the Light for Jace and for us. When we were feeling empty, missing our families, struggling to keep up with hectic schedules, and otherwise miserable, God was there. He was there in the friends across the world sending me scriptures and encouragement. He was there in my group when I was at my lowest and so sick in Beijing, using these families to nurse me back to health. He was there when I came out of the elevator and found Jace disoriented and walking through the hallway because he left the room while Alex was sleeping! He is here now, in this hotel room, shining HIs Light in my son. My son...This little life was created by God, and this little life brings His light to me. Thank you, God for Your Light and Your glory.

Yes, we are leaving China, but the best part of China is right here in this room with me. The best part of China has a Light that can't be extinguished. And with His glory turning misery into miracles, maybe we will be back. But you'll have to wait and see...

Love and Blessings,
Shannon

Itinerary for Wednesday, 8/4

2010-08-04T11:13:00.001-04:00

This afternoon was the swearing in ceremony at the US Consulate....The speaker, who actually approved all 30 families visa's said a few endearing words to us, congratulated us, and we took an oath swearing that all of the information we've submitted was true and accurate. It brought me to tears as we raised our right hands' as a group. What a miracle we have witnessed. There were 3 teens who were almost too old to get adopted that made the cut-off adoption age of 14. That was especially celebratory. Makes me want to come back to adopt a teen! When the children approach 'teen', they are no longer eligible for adoption. What happens to them? I am told they must work in the orphanage until they are old enough to go out on their own. In some cases, the unthinkable happens.

Tonight was the dinner cruise on the Pearl River. I really didn't want to go, but I knew most of the group was going, so I decided to join them. The food was interesting. Look real close and you'll see a chicken head! Also on the menu was boiled, salted pig's stomach... Let's just say when we got back to the hotel we ordered from Lucy's--an American food restaurant--and our bellies were full with comfort foods--sort of.

Only one more day in Guangzhou, Guys. My family will be united! Please pray for our travel. We will have traveled 24 hours by the time we get to Ron and the kids in New York's JFK. Then a 4 hour drive home, on a Friday, in NY! I can't imagine being on a plane--with Jace--who can't hear--or be reasoned with yet--for all of those hours!! We prayed so hard for Jace's heart to be prepared for our arrival here in China--and it was!!!!! Now let's pray for that arduous flight home!!! Oh, I can't WAIT for Jace to meet the rest of his family!!!!! It's SO exciting to be preparing for travel HOME!!!!!!!

Updates tomorrow!!

Love to All,
Shannon Pierro

My Little Emperor....

2010-08-03T21:36:00.002-04:00

My Little Emperor....

Ah...The Red Couch picture! I never thought I'd get this far in the process! Whew! It's been a long year, but SO worth the wait. I've seen many families throughout their journey on that red couch. And here we are! Finally!

Jace loves his Chinese threads...He wears them with honor. Most of the pictures you see him flexing...pretty funny. Guess who taught him that?--Daddy via skype.

Click here or copy and paste to see the rest of the pictures...: http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#date/2010-08-03/05:03:17 Scroll down to see the latest pics.

The waterfall is in the middle of the hotel. There are many coy below. It's so beautiful.

See you Soon,
Shannon

Tuesday Morning 8/3

2010-08-03T21:18:00.004-04:00

Jace is napping so I thought I'd catch you all up..

He was VERY warm last night after receiving 3 shots. I gave him Motrin to ward off the fever so he is much better this morning after breakfast and some swimming. I put him down early for a nap because today is the famous 'red couch' picture at 3pm. I think this will help him feel more like himself. Thanks for all praying! He is so sweet. He curls up next to me (with all his toys between us) in bed and kisses me at least 5 times before he finally falls asleep. How cute is that?? Melting heart here....

Nothing else really to report other than we only have 3 more days! I can't wait for everyone to meet Jace. I wish we were flying in to BWI.

After the picture our group is headed to the Six-Banyan Temple. Alex, Jace and me will skip that and head back to the pool. It is such a great bonding experience for us! He really loves it. Then, dinner at 6pm.

love and hugs xo,
Shannon

Medical Exam

2010-08-02T08:49:00.000-04:00

click here: http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#date/2010-08-01/11:25:41 and scroll down for the medical pictures. The one where I am holding him is where he got the shots. He had no idea. He flirted with every nurse, played with every dr. What a charmer he is!

3 shots!! That's all he got! YAY! Thanks for the prayers! I know Karen V. said she had her gang praying too~~if your reading this and you prayed for my Jace~~I thank you! Please pray fro him NOT to have a fever--or at least be unaffected by it....

But today, he was fine! His feelings were hurt, but he stopped crying quickly. Thank God for my travel families--they are so sweet and compassionate! Even the two families that joined us in Guangzhou look out for us! We are a family in itself here. It's amazing how perfect strangers become so close after sharing such a unique and emotional experience. I am happy to report that we are finally finishd with fee thing! Whew! I hated carrying around all that cash and worrying how much I was spending...not that i wanted to pay for anything...;)

After we got back form the shots, we stopped at a store called 'Jordan's'. IT's here on the square. If you are coming to Guangzhou, please go there for CHinese outfits, etc. I only paid $7 for each one and the owner is a Christian. He is happy to meet other Christians. He will make a calligraphy of your child's American name for free!!! He asks you as soon as you walk in the door if you want one. He is happy to do it. He is a delight.

Shortly after the walk, we went back to the pool. Jace is napping now from all that activity and needle trama. We are supposed to meet in 10 minutes for the pedestrian street. I am dying to go, but he is sleeping so peacefully...waaa......Plus, his lunch is waiting for him.

Updates tomorrow!!

4 more days!!!!!
Love,
Shannon

Sunday Evening Guangzhou

2010-08-01T13:38:00.001-04:00

http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#albums/pool/2010-07-31/17:47:15

I actually got to work out tonight !!!! YAY!! I went to the gym for some cardio, then swimming with Jace. HE LOVED IT!!!!! He has no fear of the water at all!!! He ven puts his face under! The view from the hotel is spectactular...on the Pearl River.

Tomorrow could be a disaster. I am worried that Jace will need too many shots...grrr...I hope not! I met a family who's son had 4 sots and a fever the next day...Please pray for my little guy!!

Love you~~
SHANNON

A Breath of Fresh Air

2010-08-01T13:37:00.001-04:00

http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#albums/Guangzhou/2010-08-01/03:33:33

WOW! What a difference here in Guangzhou! Today after a hearty breakfast, we went on a tour to the Yuntai Garden, then onto lunch for some interesting CHinese food. I LOVED the garden--Alex took WAY too many photos to show-but all beautiful! She really has a knack for photography. Check out the photos by clicking on the link posted. In them you can see a traditional Chinese lunch served on a lazy susan. Kinda cool. Alex has mastered chopsticks--not this Westerner! I try, but I can't do it!

We borrowed a stroller today--major back appreciation! A local store here lends them out for free! Many stores here with American names...and SO many American families here! Tons! All with chinese babies/toddlers...Everyone is so friendly! All the hotel employees smile and are gracious--always eager to help. Alex left our camera outside of our room on a ledge--they found it and returned it! Not sure that would've happened in Beijing! I can't say enough about our guide. He is awesome (Girls'--you were right about Elvin!!)! I feel like I am on vacation here! I will get some pictures around the hotel--you won't believe the difference! wow! That's all I can say!

Our little emperor is napping, but after he wakes, we may go to the pool. Not sure! Too many choices! We love it here!!! Thanks again for all the prayers!!!!!

ps...I am told there is even a 7-11 store here! Funny!

love to all!!
Shannon

Guangzhou

2010-08-01T13:35:00.002-04:00

We are now in Guangzhou. This is the view from our hotel room! SO much nicer-and no smog! This is definitely more like a resort. The sun is out! I haven't seen it in 1 week!!! YAY!!

Our guide is so fun! He is silly and very compassionate--plays with the kids.

We arrived last night LATE. Our flight was delayed for hours. Jace slept on the way here but screamed on the flight descent. His ears were hurting. We tried his drink. Thankfully, Chris had Cheerios and that worked for a bit, but they still hurt. I hope he doesn't have an ear infection. I wouldn't know because he does't show pain. He has fallen a lot and he never cries. I guess he is used to not being heard?

We are meeting for breakfast soon. Another tour (grr) and then we will do some paperwork. Tomorrow my little man gets his shots :(

I will update tonight!

Love you all!
SHannon

Friday, July 30th

2010-07-30T12:57:00.001-04:00

Today seemed much cooler-- because it had rained and the humidity died a little--so we decided to take it easy again and walk around the market area to explore. We came across some strange sites so we thought we'd share them with the picture link below.

Last night we elected to skip the Chinese food and went to Outback Steakhouse with another family. It was extremely hot and humid. We were drenched in sweat when we got there, but it was worth it. The food was very good and the conversation even better.

Another dear friend sent me some scripture verses that kept me going. In fact, I read them so much that this morning it was my first thought. Thanks, Girls! You know who you are--my been there done that Girls'...Ron read me some sweet comments from the blog that I didn't know were there. I wish I would've seen them shortly after I posted--they were quite encouraging and filled with love! Thanks everyone who did it!!

Tomorrow we fly to Guangzhou which I hear is beautiful. And slower paced. But truly, I have been slowing our pace anyway. Even though we are ready to be home, we are enjoying some things anyway. Jace is definitely happier too. I have already packed most the luggage..lol...can you tell I am ready? We just got Jace's passport today too. YAY!

http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#albums/market

Love,
Shannon

Naptime

2010-07-29T12:37:00.001-04:00

These photos above were taken after McDonald's and the mall in Beijing. We were very sleepy. The heat will tire anyone. But we enjoy strolling along the mall. I think tonight we may try to go back. It looks like there is an outdoor market type thing. It is still very hot, but I'd like to check it out. I wish I'd have known these things earlier. I may not have went a little stir crazy. Anyway, we are enjoying ourselves much more.

We've learned a lot about our little guy in a week. I'll give you a little synopsis. Say, 20 random things about my Jace:

1. He LOVES to eat! Especially fried rice! ALso, he eats most veggies, shoots, etc. But he can 'put away' rice, pork and chicken. Makes me want to learn to cook his foods. I want him to be able to still enjoy those.
2. He smiles a lot. And laughs. He is genuinely VERY silly and mimics everything you do! He also imitates signs.
3. He loves people. Especially the men in the group, but will go to anyone who wants him. But lately he glances at me first to check. I like that.
4. His feet can smell up a room quickly! Even in sandals!!! Whew!
5. He LOVES the bath. Tells me 'no' when it is time to get out. But I make sure I win ;)
6. He will sit on the potty anytime and be able to go. He is potty trained for sure. However, if in a public place, if I miss his 'sign' to go, he will go in his pull-up. He wakes up dry every morning.
7. He is extremely smart. Show him 1 time, and he knows it.
8. He hates to walk a lot. Makes me carry him more than I want to.
9. He needs to work on going up and down steps and his balance is off.
10. He will go down for a nap/bedtime without a fuss if he has toys from that days play in the bed. And me, of course ;)
11. He dresses himself and is very independent, very routine with it. Thank you, Nannies from the institute.
12. He LOVES cars and trains! But will entertain himself with anything except tv--no attention span for tv.
13. He is a 'kisser' for sure. Will kiss on demand.
14. He also loves puzzles or anything flashing or moving.
15. He doesn't like fast, rough play--makes him scared and he cries.
16. He wakes up happy and wants to look out the window every morning.
17. He loves his cross my mom got him. He shows it to me a lot.
18. He will not let me take things out of his hands (especially food and CANDY). If I do, he fights me. Bites my shoulders and scratches my back. Again, not hatefully! But enough to let me know he is mad. I can always wrestle him into affection afterward.
19. He loves flashcards with pictures-I wish I had more.
20. He has stolen this momma's heart for sure!
Shannon Pierro
www.ourdeafson.blogspot.com

Happy to Report

2010-07-28T21:59:00.003-04:00

...that last night was MUCH better for us. After a 2 1/2 hour nap, Jace was feeling much better. We went to the acrobatic show and dinner, which was more of the same, but enjoyable. The food really is good. I am just tired of the same things. And last night was the first night I ate without sweating all over. It was calm and relaxing. After dinner, we got back to the hotel and I gave Jace a LONG bath. HE played a lot in the tub. He loves it. I skyped with hubby for a long time too.

Today, we slept in. We will not meet for site seeing. A dear friend who has 'been there done that' gave me a little tip. There is a play area in the mall about 4 blocks down from the hotel. We will do that today. And maybe swim. We have to wear swim caps here--that should be a site! Oh well, Jace won't care what I look like!

I want to thank all who are praying. I feel like myself today. I didn't know I could opt out of all the activities as much as I needed to. Our agency recently suggested that I take it easy. Just what the dr. ordered! I will post more tonight!

Signed,
Seeing the Light

Ron sent me this before he left for work. I miss them so much!! I can so see Jace right in the middle of all of those limbs intertwined! lol! Can wait to see them!

Not Coping Too Well

2010-07-28T10:59:00.001-04:00

Today we visited a Tea house and the Beijing Zoo...

The tea house was cool. I liked tasting the different teas--even if it was 100+ degrees outside!!! Nothing like tasting hot tea with a smile on your face and sweat running down your boobs and back. Oh, lets not forget holding an also sweating toddler who wants very much to upset the tea cart. But, hey....let's move on to the zoo scene....

Hot + Hazy + Humid= 3 MISERABLE ADOPTIVE FAMILIES IN BEIJING!!!! Ugh!!! Come on! How much more can this girl take??????? Can you tell I am starting to unravel? Here's the deal...

I am ecstatic to be here to get my little boy. My sweet, adorable, God given little boy. BUT, I hate everything else!! I hate the schedule! I hate it that my son misses out on nap time while being transported place to place to place! I hate going outside and walking for hours in what feels like a huge sauna with 30 million non-smiling, nasty-look giving, rude and pushy people! I hate feeling like I will get hit by a car or a hurling 'loogy' or anything else!!!! I hate it that after standing in this sauna we go to a restaurant and eat FRIED EVERYTHING. I hate it that there is not a healthy dish ANYWHERE!! I hate it that I haven't worked out in FOREVER--unless you call toting a 40 pound hot, squirming toddler around for hours without a stroller because your guide promised to get you one and never did-exercise.

I miss my family. I miss American food. And ice in my drink. All I want is a big, fat, COLD, healthy salad. And maybe a glass of wine.

To my family and friends...sorry to vent. I am really stir crazy here. I didn't let on to any of this complaining before now for a reason. Now, I just don't care. This blog entry is really for all the adoptive moms before me. Help!! How did YOU handle it????

Please pray for us. Even Alex sits on the bus with her ears plugged into an ipod. That's how she copes.

Signed,
Sweating in Beijing

photos: http://www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro#date/2010-07-28/00:06:01

Pearl Market and Summer Palace

2010-07-27T11:34:00.000-04:00

Ok...

Today was the Summer Palace and Pearl Market.

The Pearl Market was interesting. We learned about fresh water pearls and how to know the real from a fake. We got a little demonstration and the girls opened an oyster to show us how many pearls were actually inside. We guessed only one. One pearl actually had about 15 inside. We also learned the colors...white, pink, lavender and black. Of course my favorite--the black--was most expensive...figures!

Then onto the Summer Palace. Beautiful place. The pictures just won't do it justice. Our guide was pretty informative, but unfortunately I couldn't really listen to him as Jace was having a meltdown. Yes, I said 'meltdown'. Today is the day he decided to show me his naughty side. I am thanking God there is a naughty side to see. I was beginning to get worried that he was only trying to please me by being a 'good boy' all the time. Although, I did see a bit of it yesterday when he tried to bite me in the restaurant-although gently-he still bit me. So this is what happens. If his feelings are hurt, or he is mad, he first throws whatever is in his hands or anything near him. He tries to grip anything in his path to send sailing throughout the room. So of course, I pick him up to walk away from the situation. As I walk away from our little 'scenario', he very discreetly scrapes his nails on my back. If that doesn't work, he then acts like he is putting his head on my shoulder to rest, but instead bites me. Not hard at all, but enough to let me know he is P.O'd...IF THAT doesn't work, he wiggles out of my arms and goes as limp as a noodle to the ground. Well....guess what? It doesn't work. I don't LET it work. I pick him up and hold him and kiss him until he stops fighting me. He must not be used to crying for very long--it doesn't last more than about 3 minutes. I want him to know that he can test me all he wants to-Momma's not ever leaving and he will never get away with hurting me.

It was actually funny when he was trying to bite me. The look in his eyes said "I am mad, but I am afraid to hurt you". Honestly, he likes the correction from me. He cozies in my lap afterward. I love it.

Hope you enjoy the pics!!!!

www.dropshots.com/shannonpierro

Until tomorrow!!
Shannon

Tuesday, July 27th

2010-07-26T23:16:00.001-04:00

So weird writing that today is Tuesday, as it is actually Monday evening for you.

Anyway, Here are some pictures of Alex and Jace playing in the room after breakfast this morning. Today we meet at 9:30 am for the Summer Palace and the Pearl Market.

This morning I again woke to Jace hugging me. He was rubbing his hands on my face and lips. Almost like he was outlining the shape or something. He really is so affectionate toward me. Alex is starting to get her feelings hurt because he only lets me hold him. I am told this is normal after not having this type of attention for so long. I am trying to already wean him (just a little) and make him walk or hold hands with Alex. Again, not too much, but I don't want him to think he gets this much attention ALL the time. I'm sure I will make mistakes along the way regarding attatchment, but for now this Momma is going with her heart.

We love him so much! Can't wait for you all to meet him and love him too!!

kisses!!
Shannon

Monday, July 26th

2010-07-26T18:36:00.001-04:00

Today we go to the Civil Affairs office again to finalize some things. We've had the morning to hang out as a family in the room. I love it. I love having time to 'chill'.

This morning I woke up to Jace rubbing my arms again. I know a lot of moms are shaking their finger at me saying it's no good to sleep with him, but I LOVE it! He nestles in so lovingly. It's like he can't get close enough. He is a cuddle bug!

Everywhere we go he attracts attention! He has such a sweet personality. I am truly blessed. With ALL my children, my husband, my life. I don't know how or why God ever chose me to bless so abundantly. Surely I don't deserve it!! ANyway, I am so happy--so at peace--so in AWE of my Creator.

Hopefully, everything will go ok today. I always get nervous doing the 'official' things here...wish me luck---better yet---send me prayers ;)

Kisses from Beijing xxxxooo,
Shannon
ps...I did get to look at the comments on the blog--Thanks to all who left me sweet words of encouragement--and for the support! I need that 'home' comfort--it is more precious than gold!!!

2010-07-25T05:30:00.002-04:00

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Great Wall

2010-07-25T05:27:00.002-04:00

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Jade Factory

2010-07-25T05:16:00.005-04:00

On the bus signing...

The internet was down this morning so I couldn't send Emma my email to blog. It is now 3:45 pm. We just returned from the Great Wall and lunch. We also went to the Jade factory where many Chinese girls fell in love with Jace. Again it was VERY hot, so I didn't walk the wall much at all. After yesterday's episode I was petrified to be outside too long. Anyway, we enjoyed it. I would love to send a lot of pictures, but with me having to send everything to Emma, the pictures must be sent individually and it takes way too long.

Jace is getting more and more comfortable with us. He is getting more and more freedom, so of course he is testing the waters. Even so, he is completely adorable and so well behaved! He loves to learn signs and mimics everything.

Today he fell asleep in my lap on the bus. I was watching him sleep so peacefully. His lips full, his cheeks flushed--my heart ached for him knowing his mom left him in the middle of a hospital, wandering around alone. How could she do that? How could she set him down and walk away? I cannot even comprehend such cruelty. I know he once laid at her breast, sleeping so peacefully--so sound. What makes a mom do such a wretched thing? I love him so much. I thank God throughout the day for him and for ALL my children. I can't imagine--I never WANT to imagine my life without them.

Thanks again for the encouragement. I wish I could respond to everyone!!!

xoxoxox,
Shannon

Better Today

2010-07-25T05:11:00.001-04:00

Feeling a little better today. But still not myself. I wanna thank everyone for the encouragement, especially Karen and Jamie. Girls, I am so glad I have you to lean on.

Just got back from breakfast. Jace LOVES yogurt. He ate two containers and a croissant...some eggs and orange juice. Between all my boys at home, I think I'll be grocery shopping every other day!

I miss my family so bad! I have to be in Beijing for another week before I can go to Guangzhou. That will be a relief. The hotel here isn't very child friendly. I hear that in Guangzhou it is much better. Ron and the kids skype us so that is better--but not the same.

Today we go to the Great Wall, Peal and Jade factory. I hope I can take the heat!!

Jace laid down ok for bed last night. He didn't cry for the first time. He watched me a lot to see if my eyes were opened. lol. Then, he rubbed my arms back and forth like I rubbed his the night before. He really is a lover. He loves the attention. He laughs ALL the time!!! I am so in love!!!! We both are. You will be too!!!!

Much love to all....
Shannon

2010-07-24T16:51:00.002-04:00

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2010-07-24T16:47:00.000-04:00

Whoa...

Today was a train wreck....for me anyway. Although it started out ok...

It was extremely HOT...I took plenty of water for all of us. We went to Tian men Square and the Forbidden City. I was enjoying it until the heat hit me like a Mac truck. I was dizzy, nauseous, and miserable. Everyone was hot but it wreaked havoc on me. I had to stop several times and sit down. I tried to push myself but I just couldn't. After what felt like forever, we made it to the bus.

Here's where the train wreck started. On the bus, I thought I'd pass out. I was shaking and my head was pounding. Luckily, Bart, one of the dads in our group helped through it. He is an anesthesiologist and talked me through. Thankfully---SO THANKFULLY, he and Alex nursed me back to life. He had me lay on the chair and put my feet up....then along came Miss Congeniality from the lobby and told him I may NOT sleep there. He told her I WASN'T sleeping and she looked agitated. I tried to get up and I threw up all over her fancy-schmancy chair in the lobby. AND IN BART'S PRECIOUS DAUGHTER's HAT!!! ARGHHHH.....Nice....He helps me feel better and I puke in his daughter's sun hat (which is soaking in the sink as we speak).I will send that one out for cleaning...

How was Jace in all this? FINE!! Laughing in the lobby, playing with Alex who was right by my side nursing me too!! Putting cold water on my neck, back and head. Poor thing. She must've been so scared!

Bart got us back to the room, gave me some Gatorade and well wishes. I laid down for awhile, took a shower ,then a nap with Alex and Jace. All is well now.

Those of you that know me--know that I am a normally a strong person. What happened to me today? This trip? I am falling apart! But I DO feel the prayers...keep them coming...PLEASE!!!

I leave you with a video I took after our nap. We taught Jace the sign for 'candy'...He is so precious!!!

Love!!!! Kisses from Beijing...

Good Morning From Beijing

2010-07-23T22:53:00.001-04:00

Good Morning! I feel so much better today after sleeping through the night. Well, kinda through the night.

Anyway, today we go to the Forbidden City. We just returned from Breakfast and back to the room for blogging--Jace ate SO much and now he discovered my bag of snapeas crisps from home--he is going to town on them!!! I asked him if he would share with me--he shook his head 'no'....lol!! He shares everything, but apparently those are not up for discussion!

Will blog later...

I love you guys!!!

Shannon

Bath Time.

2010-07-23T20:15:00.002-04:00

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Blissfully Sleepy

2010-07-23T09:05:00.003-04:00

Today has been even longer--I still haven't caught up on my sleep, but I am pleasantly tired. How can I not be with such a sweet, happy boy!

I REALLY wish I had access to the blog myself. I would love to add even more pics and see the comments, but I can't see anything! Not even FB. Oh well. Emma has been doing a great job as my secretary!

Jace LOVES his toys. And his silly bands as you can see. Especially the light up ones. He has more energy than me-I have met my match. He is very silly and LOVES the attention he is getting from Alex. We are having a blast. He is scared at sleep times. He gets very quiet and tearful. Other than that, he is pretty fun and extremely bright!! His smile lights a room and the sweet coo that comes out of him melts my heart. I can't begin to tell you how happy I am.

I bought him some shoes today. His smelled SO BAD!!! The room literally smelled stinky! I can't bring myself to throw them out so they are packed in a bag AND A BOX...haha...but the new ones light up and I didn't know it when I bought them. Let's just say they are a hit!

He is potty trained. I don't know why they told me he wasn't. He goes to the bathroom alone but I help him anyway. In public he is used to being in a diaper so he pee's in it. But at the hotel-never. We'll work on that at home.

He mimics all of our signs. He doesn't know what they all mean, but some he does! And he remembers. He is so independent. I am amazed.

well, almost time to meet for dinner.

Keep the prayers flowing! We feel them!!

xo,
Shannon, Alex and Jace

Breakfast

2010-07-22T21:31:00.002-04:00

Good Morning

2010-07-22T18:53:00.003-04:00

Hi everyone!
Emma is still posting for me--thanks,Emma!

We slept well last night. It is 6:30am here. Jace woke up almost on top of me--he sleeps like Nick. He is a cuddle bug during sleeping, unconsciously. He us eating Turkish figs this morning.

I am having trouble with the pc and photobucket. Emma told me the bath video is gone! I am trying to reload it now.

He just motioned to me that he had to 'pee' we did it ! Yay!!

I cannot begin to tell you the awe I have for God right now. This beautiful boy was given to me and hit fits into our family so perfectly. God is so good!

Ron sent me comments from you all!!! Thank you! They are an encouragement!! I wish I could see this blog!! I wish I could post easier too. I am sending this from my iPhone

Anyway, more to follow. Gonna play with my happy little boy on the floor now....
I love you all!!
Thank you, God!!!!

2010-07-22T10:03:00.000-04:00

Gotcha Day and Civil Affairs

2010-07-22T09:55:00.002-04:00

Wow! What a special day! Jace is amazing! He already knows signs. He can mouth "mama" and "papa". He can sign 'girl' and 'boy'. He gives me a thumbs up a lot. And Alex--loves her too! All the girls here play with Jace. He is a very happy boy-he laughs a lot! He loves his toys. Especially the light up toys.

We went to the Civil Affairs office this afternoon after lunch. He is now ours! YAY!! We came back to the hotel to grab a nap and now we are getting ready to meet for dinner. I tried to put Jace in the crib here. No go. That was the first time I heard him cry. He ended up sleeping between ALex and me which we loved! I woke up to his little hand on my neck. So sweet. Alex and I are completely in love.

2010-07-22T00:26:00.001-04:00

He is Precious!!!!! HE IS OURS!!!! Thank you, GOD!!! He imitates EVERY sign...He smiles all the time!!!! He tried to say mama and papa....Oh, I can't believe it!!!!!! i am trying desparelty to download pics and video!!!!!
Shannon Pierro
www.ourdeafson.blogspot.com

2010-07-22T00:23:00.003-04:00

We are off to breakfast this morning to meet our travel families. I can't believe in a few hours I will have 4 children! I have Jace's bag of toys ready to go. I feel at peace and I know it's from the prayers! Thank you all so much! I can't get blogspot yet (working on another way)so I can't read any comments. If you want to email me directly, please do! spierro@comcast.net

We slept well last night. Feeling refreshed this morning--yet dizzy with anticipation! Leaving you with this picture I took this morning. There are people sleeping outside on rooftops!

Shannon Pierro
www.ourdeafson.blogspot.com

2010-07-21T10:48:00.001-04:00

Hi Everyone,

Having trouble with the VPN and China blocks blogspot and facebook, so Ron is posting this for me!

We arrived in CHina about 7:20pm. It is now 9:59pm. The flight was LONG but uneventful. Alex and I are so tired, but giddy....We meet our travel friends and our guide in the lobby tomorrow morning at 8:30. Then it's off to the institution to get our kids!! After that, Civil Affairs office. PLEASE pray for everything to go smoothly. I am such a scatter-brain these days (ok always)and I am afraid I am forgetting something!!

Can you believe Jace will be with us tomorrow??? It's crazy! I can't wait---yet I am so nervous too! How do you tell a little boy who has NO CLUE what is happening that you love him and want to be his mommy?? I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. All I do know is that we, the Pierro's, are ready for him...As I left this morning to board the plane, Ron hugged me tightly and whispered;

"Go get our son"...Our son...wow. Is this really happening???

xoxoxoxo,
Shannon

ps....I will post pics as soon as possible!!!!

The Gardener...

2010-07-18T22:42:00.003-04:00

Here I am. It is late. The house is quiet. My children are securely tucked into bed. I am left to my own thoughts.

Thoughts…So many thoughts. So many ‘What if ‘s?”…A cloud of doubt shadows over me like the darkness before a storm. What if Jace doesn’t like me? What if he screams for days? What if he has other issues that are yet undetected? Can I do this? Is this really God’s will—or did I act on my own selfish desire? The thoughts go on. They crowd my head as I lay awake in bed…over and over again they fire through my mind like missiles in battle-relentless-even as I am in prayer.

“Lord, only you know what this is all about. Only You know the depths of my heart’s desire. ..Tell me, Lord. Tell me You did this. You brought him to me, right? I didn’t want another child! I didn’t need another child-and certainly not a deaf child when none of my family members share in my passion for the deaf community. Tell me I can do this. Tell me I didn’t go before you….no….no, I couldn’t have…right? “

Do you see how the seed of doubt can creep in? Do you see how it can capture and destroy even your inner most thoughts? Like a weed pushing its way into a garden, trying to take root, squelching the flourishing buds of a delicate, beautiful flower preparing to blossom. That is, unless that ugly root is extracted.

And so it is with the Gardener. Watching. Feeding. Nurturing. Watering. Waiting. Waiting for that delicate flower to bloom. There isn’t a weed He hasn’t seen. Not one that can fool Him. His power is greater than the strongest weed in its deceit, desperately trying to spread death and disease. He knows it takes patience, time and love to grow something so lovely. Something only He can truly enjoy-something worth waiting for…something that will need pruning in just the right season.

This is where my thoughts eventually rest. In the arms of my Gardener. Thank you, Lord for not leaving me to my own thoughts.

To My Precious Baby Boy Jace....

2010-07-17T16:24:00.002-04:00

Tickets!

2010-07-12T21:24:00.001-04:00

Almost there, Jace!!

2010-07-12T10:16:00.002-04:00

So excited to share this with you!

中国妇女旅行社总社

Itinerary for the Pierro’s /Fang Chen Chen( 2007/01/15 )

July 21: Arriving in Beijing by CA982 at 18:20,
Stay in Wang Fu Jing Grand Hotel in Beijing
July 22: Meet the child in the morning
Registration at 14:30
July 23: Local sightseeing: Summer Palace
July 24: Local sightseeing: Great Wall
July 25: Local sightseeing: Forbidden City
July 26: Get Adoptive Registration Certificate
Notarization and applying for passport
July 27: Local sightseeing: the Zoo and Olympic Park
July 28: Local sightseeing: Beihai Park
Enjoying the acrobatic show
July 29: Local sightseeing: Science Museum
July 30: Getting the passport
July 31: Fly from Beijing to Guangzhou by CA1327 at 14:00,
Arriving Guangzhou at 17:00,
Stay in White Swan Hotel
August 1: Local sightseeing: Yuntai Garden
August 2: Physical check for the baby & Photo for the baby
Local sightseeing: Pedestrian Shopping Street
August 3: Visa appointment
Local sightseeing: Six Banyan Temple
August 4: Swearing in the ceremony at the Consulate
Local sightseeing: Liu Hua Hu Park
August 5: Get the visa
August 6: Leave Guangzhou for Beijing by CA1310, which departs at 8:00 and arrives at 11:00( air tickets are booked on their own) and then transfer to the flight CA981 back home at 13:00.

Hang on, Sweet Jace!! We're ALmost there!!!

A Different Kind of Nurture

2010-07-10T19:06:00.006-04:00

10 more days and Alex and I will be China bound...I am so consumed with the little details that the reality still hasn't hit home. I am constantly thinking, planning, organizing, shopping--all in preparation for my young son's arrival. So much in fact, that I now dream in sign language. Really! In my dreams I am signing to him! Crazy, right?

This week my 90 year old grandfather stayed with us (and yes, I still have 3 grandparents even though I am 43!). He flew in from Colorado (alone!) to spend some time with my family. I was thrilled to be seeing him again this year.

I enjoyed laughing and playing board games with Granddad at the kitchen table. But it's not easy watching a grandparent age. I was happy to cook for him and to wash his clothes--to remind him to wash his hands and NOT to take his teeth out and place them on my kitchen table after dinner ;) I loved taking care of him. But evenings? Evenings were hard on both us of. I am told that the elderly can be as sharp as a tack during the day, but as the evenings fall to darkness, so does the delicate mind of Granddad. "Sundowners Syndrome" is what it is called. Confusion sets in and the once flowing conversations are few. This is when he tells me to put him bed.

I walked him into his bedroom every night and helped him into his pajamas. These tender moments are ones that I cherish. Moments when he gave into dignity, put aside his pride, and let his granddaughter help him to bathe and to dress. There was a look of gratefulness in his eyes even as he felt some embarrassment. That is a look I'll hold onto. The look that tells me I am appreciated and adored. As I stood in front of him, buttoning his shirts, I wondered how long I will have him here. The days events ran through my mind...laughing with the kids, telling stories of the 'old' days, even the fall he took on the way into the car that morning ...and the panic I felt trying to lift him to his feet. I felt he read my mind as our eyes met and my thoughts finally cleared. He smiled at me and pursed his lips to kiss me-just like a little boy.

In just 10 days I will again give that kind of love. The kind that lets you know you are needed and wanted. In 10 days my life will change forever. In 10 days we will be a family of 6. In 10 days I will again nurture. Only this will be a different kind of nurture.

2010-07-01T08:07:00.002-04:00

After many phone calls, emails, money wires and paperwork checking, re-checking, and checking again...I am finally starting to feel like this is really going to happen.

Yesterday, I started my day on the internet at 9:30am. I finally stopped everything at 2:00pm. Feeling so bad for the kids not having my attention for so long, I surprised them with a trip to the local snowball stand. They were happy and so was I. Sometimes I wrap myself too tightly in accomplishing 'tasks'- forgetting to stop and embrace the refreshing moments that happen throughout the day. For me, watching my kids share a 'taste' of their sweet treats at that snowball stand was one of those moments. Just that little bit of my attention made my kids so happy. I wish I was more like that. I wish I would learn to find joy everyday, no matter how uneventful the day is.

You know, I keep seeing the verse from Matthew 18:

"Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.
Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
And whoever receives one child such as this in my name receives me."

Today, on this blog from the Snippets on the lower right hand is a verse from Luke:

Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall not receive the kingdom of God as a little child shall in no wise enter therein.
(Luke 18:17)

Now, I realize that this text reference isn't exactly what I am talking about above...but it does touch on my post. I think I better dive into these bible verses a little more since they are gently 'appearing' lately.

Update to Travel

2010-06-29T23:21:00.002-04:00

We are leaving on July 20th and returning on Aug 6th...I still can't believe it is here--FINALLY!

This is were I will post everything while over there, so be sure to check it out! You will be able to see our first encounter! I'll post lots of pictures!

Too many things to still do--my thoughts are tied up right now...will keep you updated!!!

xo,
SHannon

Somebody, PINCH ME!!!!

2010-06-28T17:00:00.003-04:00

I can't believe it! I really can't!!! TRAVEL APPROVAL IS HERE!!!!

Thank you for ALL the prayers!!!

I don't know when yet. I will know by Thursday when the Consulate Appointment is verified by my agency! I know I will be in China in July at least!!!!! Could be 3 weeks, could be 4 weeks from now!!!!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hope...

2010-06-27T10:29:00.003-04:00

For a new week and good news of travel approval from China. I just don't understand how China works. So many others have received travel approval with the same timeline as mine! Maybe they work by agencies? Maybe by institutions? I have no idea. What I do know is that my Jace is over there-on the side of God's earth-and needs to be home with us!

Praying for good news and quickly--like tomorrow!!

Just for Fun

2010-06-24T11:13:00.002-04:00

This was posted just for fun. I hope you all know by now that I do not in any way trust in anything other than God. I am growing impatient waiting for the travel approval, yes. But I do know that God is ultimately in control here. Sigh...just hard to know Jace is sitting in that place when he could be home with his family!

So...back to my nesting...

As Far As Travel Approval Goes....Praying...

2010-06-21T08:37:00.000-04:00

Happy Father's Day, Ron!

2010-06-20T21:19:00.006-04:00

We had a great Fathers' Day. It started with a nice pancake breakfast for the kids' at the kitchen table. Ron and I stuck to our 'clean' eating plan with egg white omelets and cream of rice. The kids' gave Ron their gifts and we talked and laughed. I love when the whole family is at the kitchen table. I am blessed to have such a tight family. Even our teenager enjoys days like this. Of course it helps that Ron is so funny. He keeps us close with his gentle, fun-loving ways. The kids love to be around him. Not just my kids. ALL KIDS. We always have kids at our house--teens, cousins, neighbors, friends...doesn't matter. They love him. I swear it is because he is like a kid himself. I always tell him that he is a 6 yr old boy trapped in a man's body.

Happy Fathers' Day to you, Ron

No More Freaking Out

2010-06-14T11:12:00.003-04:00

My case manager told me that nowadays a copy is fine. Thank you God for answered prayer!!

Back to the waiting for TA....

Freaked Out!

2010-06-14T00:40:00.002-04:00

Ok, so I am going through all of my documents tonight--getting things ready as I wait for TA (travel approval). In fact, I learned today that 2 people (with my same dates) received TA Friday! That is TA in only 5 days! Surely, I am next!

So, back to my reason for this post...

As I am gathering documents, I notice that I do NOT have an original document that I need to take to China. I only have COPIES of this document! This is NOT good. I am to take the original to China, but I must have mailed that original to one of the many places I have sent docs to. I am so confused right now. I tore this house apart looking for one piece of paper!! Now, I need to mention that I am normally meticulous about filing these important papers! You've seen the file box! I've posted pictures on here proving my diligence in methodically keeping these records safe! But if I am being perfectly honest, I can remember a nagging thought throughout the last month reminding me to check on that original. My guess is, I was too filled with pride in my filing expertise that I ignored the nagging thought entirely. So here I am, sitting on my bed, unable to sleep at almost 1 am!

Those of you that know me, know I have some issues with anxiety anyway. Let me tell you...this takes the cake! Thankfully, I have a group of very SUPPORTIVE adoptive moms praying for me! They tell me to relax. To breathe and trust God. This is hard for me to wrap my hard head around. So please...if you are reading this...please stop and say a little prayer that this is resolved quickly! I really covet your prayers! I read on the USCIS website that in order to obtain a duplicate, I will have to pay another $670 fee. Please Lord, let this NOT be the case!!!

All because of my stupidity!! Grrr......**BIG SIGH**

Well...

2010-06-10T11:01:00.002-04:00

My case manager emailed me on Monday to tell me that CCAA got my paperwork and will be sending travel approval. She tells me this comes in 2-4 weeks. I have heard it to come as early as 1 week-and as long as 4 weeks. Who knows what God has planned, but I am hoping for sooner, of course! Ava's bday is July 29, so I really don't want to be in China then...

Until then, I am concentrating on learning ASL and making the best of the summer with the kids!

Updates to follow...

National Visa Center Letter

2010-05-21T12:22:00.001-04:00

ARRIVED TODAY!!!!!!!

It won't be long now!!!! Hang on, Sweet Jace....Mommy's coming!!!!

I800 Approval....

2010-05-11T16:23:00.002-04:00

Came in yesterdays mail....We have one more letter to wait for until I get my travel approval. I need an NVC letter before they can send for the TA. The end of the process is near! I cannot believe it is finally here! Jace should be home by the end of July--I am hoping! I could be wrong, but things are moving swiftly, thanks be to God!! I am praying I can be back from China in time for Ava's brithday on the 29th. Can you imagine Jace seeing a birthday party at the Pierro's? All of those people??? And all of those children?? Makes me smile just thinking about it! My guess is, he'll get used to it...*wink, wink*

Jace's Quilt

2010-05-08T16:50:00.004-04:00

It's finally finished! The picture as promised...

Thank you to everyone who sent me fabric and buttons! It's so cute! Nicholas wants one too so I have left over fabric to do his. They will look so cute on their bunk beds...

Things should be moving along in the next few weeks....In fact, I'm thinking I will know a travel date by the end of the month! I will keep you posted!